Workaholic Overtimilitis

Avoiding, I've been avoiding.

Avoiding time spent alone,
avoiding questions,
avoiding the feeling,
avoiding God,
avoiding facing.

This past week, I've been doing unreasonable amounts of overtime. I stayed till 5, then 6, today I left work at 7. I would've stayed longer if not for the scheduled system shutdown.

There're lots of work to do, my excuse. My team already knows I'll be away next week, they will cover for me. I just wanted work to numb my mind, I guess.

Leaving the office, my mind is so exhausted;
After dinner at home, I'm spent.

No energy to think,
to talk,
to feel.

For the first time in my life, I'm not happy.